Tuesday, August 11, 2009

Me and my God ...

Does God exist?
This is probably the most discussed question. And really universal... People always go gaga over arguments.
I have done very successful stints during various stages of my life.
Now, the question is changed… What is God? May be this is my question…
Whenever I saw this question around, the answers made more sense to me.
Every attempt was interesting…

I have seen people identifying God as their own inabilities, limitations, ignorance, etc.
Some give fancy definitions as 'Controlling Power', 'Creator' ...
But hardly anybody experienced God...
Most of them continue to learn and unlearn about God.
Where do they learn from? From others.
Where did they learn from? From somebody else...
Somebody's God becomes your God. Same way as somebody's fear becomes your fear.
But that is not too bad. Say, 'fear of fire' is taught to you. You don't necessarily need to burn your fingers to know this...

For one and all 'God' is one answer for most of their questions...
Questions are often very uncomfortable and quite 'heavy'...
You always want to drop the burden.
I would also not carry that burden. But choosing 'some' answer just for dropping the burden is not my way.
I would rather drop the questions just as questions with out any answer...

It is natural for a rational being to deny the existence of God...
The reasons may be related to the colossal establishments on behalf of God. There can develop a natural anti establishment resistance. But this gets a bit irrational on the other side. It is like you start fighting somebody else's fancy.

I keep looking for reasons from believers. Unfortunately though, I am yet to find a reasonable reason! Many settle with some loose string somewhere and select as the best choice of comfort. God is indeed comforting. As I am comfortable even otherwise, I don't settle anywhere.

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

Stars... Memories... Past...

How many times can one write about stars?

I have written many a times...Still lot more to write...

Every evening, when I look at the sky, I see few stars...

The number varies...

But as I look on, I find another star between two seen in the first place...

Again another... And again...

In some time I see far too many...

So is life, when I look back at the events, people, relationships, lovers, friends...

Also every time, I see a new 'Self'...

The mistery base

Life has always been those small stretches from the base...
My real base? Identity?...
I don't know.
Every time, I think about this I get a different answer.
Still... I know when I drive back to my base... I always feel it... And struggle through...
One of those rare evenings, when I laze out in my balcony I can feel my base.
Drifting away from the base takes no effort though it is a race sometimes.
Looking at an ECG like graph will give a feeling that the stretch from the base would be a struggle...
And the drive back in line with gravity...
I always felt the other way. Some force acting in the opposite direction...
I never came back to the same base... The base also changes.
May be, I just peaked the longest of those stretches...
Struggling the drive back...
Will take some time... ... ...